DONT ask me why im not inside the photo =(.. boo smu pple are all ATAS, and im also a chicken =(.. AND WHY DID CAT HAVE TO BE IN CLASS boohoohoo =(..

it's quite amusing that the smu crowd is so camera shy.. everytime the camera shifts to the crowd, everyone shuffles away quickly.. at one point it really looked like the Red Sea WAHAHA! and when ben yeo came down to interview random audience, WAH the whole crowd DISPERSED supersuper funny!

ahh michellechia very pwetty and hawt =))!

(and i got that link from zhunian HAHAHA the ultimate hardcore mediacorp fan =D i like!)

zhuzhu asked me if i wanna sign up with a company who supplies calafare for mediacorp cos she knows an auntie in that company who can help us sign up WAHAHAHA! quite exciting to rub shoulders with random artistes and then i can take endless number of photos, but i dunno if it's worth embarrassing myself on national tv (though noone will see me anw HAHA), and im camera shy hoho!

michiefishie gave smu a surprise visit today yest!! and i never knew there was quite a cool student lounge in SIS, though surprisesurprise everyone is mugging there anw HAHAHAAH!

anws, celebrity-chase-craze aside XD, i still feel relatively liberated aft handing in my creative thinking individual assignments last mon HAHA!! it feeeeels good that that's over and done with, and CT is ending in... 1wk? what's left is the combined class effort proj though, but no competition no stress :))..

there are like weekly mathsforecons, analyticalskills, stats assignments and bizgovtsociety readings, but YES I KNOW im really fortunate to have the combination of profs for my mods, cos i only have one midterm test (stats) haha..

im totally dreading term 2.. BLOCK A MODS LOOK SUCKY + TEN MILLION PROJS like eews!!! so next term when pple like krystle and cat are sitting back and shaking their legs, i'll be drowning in projs like they are now =(..

i need to find sth that i look forward to in school.. something that doesnt require tremendous commitment, and something that i really enjoy.. currently school is just... school, ive got no motivation, so much so that ive been late for all my morn classes this wk!! i suddenly cant simply roll out off bed in the morn anm! getting more slp has a higher opp cost haha =D..

and you know what? i dunno if i ever told anyone, but i feel like a freaking BALL in smu.. not literally, but i feel like im just bouncing everywhere.. i feel bad for pangsehing alot of pple =X, i think at this rate i'll eventually lose all my friends =(.. and then meli is gg to be a lonely ghost floating around instead =((..

anw, i SUCK when it comes to identifying the priorities in life.. i just cant decide which thing is the most important to me, so in the end im just "half a bucket of water" everywhere i go.. i cant bring myself to fully commit to anything, just cos i cant decide where i should focus time in.. and as a result my attention span for EVERYTHING has become so so short..

at the end of the day, it's easy for pple to say at the end of the day God is the most important, but do i have enough faith to actually believe that? honestly, I WANT TO believe that and just attend fides, or church activities on sunday, but then im scared! what's gg to happen to my CV if im cca-less? etcetc.. i dont have enough courage to just PUT DOWN everything and believe wholeheartedly that God will provide everything =X..

on in conclusion, the easiest thing is to skip everything! and put time into thinking of ways to take photos with elvin ng and nat ho WAHAHA! *winkwink at zhuzhu*

but school isnt as bad as it sounds la, random cheap thrills make my day :).. like the retarded Impossible Quiz, which i spent my whole fri aftnn and night trying to advance as far as possible HAHA.. but it seriously helps to build tremendous patience and tests your intellectual capability, esp when you THINK carefully for the answers instead of tikaming! teamwork bet josiah, cat and i are the best! we managed to go all the way to level 84 =DD!!

i miss the times when school was still SCHOOL though, if you get what i mean..