Friday, April 20, 2007
mich, cat, maybs and i finally met up with mrloke on tues and he is sucha MEAN HORRIBLE MONSTER hmph tsktsk! while we waited for him to arrive (ie 8.50pm), we shared a mudpie and apple crumble, and then an extra plate of onion rings... when he finally arrived, we ate our two plates of baked rice and one plate of baked pasta.. AND AFTER EVERYTHING he happily decided to remember our cheesecake bet -_-..
and since he was SO EVIL and UNCARING, he ignored the fact that we were already stuffed and very full, and still "HELPED" us to order TWO really cheesy (but would be quite nice if we werent so full) cheesecakes plus ice cream..
OHMYMAMA OHMYMAMA. i could so totally and literally feel my bulging stomach like EEWS.
so in the middle of the night (aka 2.15am) just before i went to bed, i actually found the enthusiam and energy to do FIFTY V-UPs and NINETY SIT-UPs HAHAHAHAHA!
but yes. i regret it now. for the past few days my abdominal muscles have gotten NUMB. i cant feel whether im hungry =X... so i unknowingly skipped dinner on wed cos i thought i wasnt hungry HAHA! and now i need to stretch those muscles on a regular basis, cos it's gotten so tensed up =X.. hahaha i think it sounds quite funny actually HAHA!!
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wed was dance floor night again :).. but it was seriously the most emotionally draining night of my life haha.. I SHALL NOT ELABORATE THOUGH.
i will not get my hopes so high again.. cos if one day if it doesnt turn out as i expect it, OHMYMAMA the trauma is quite scary, NOT KIDDING =X.. i alr experienced about one hour of it on wed evening and i dont wanna ever go through that again!!
but thinking back, i still feel happy, blessed and lovedddd :).. the EIGHT (6 + 2 additional!!) tickets plus the flagged notes are lying beside my computer now =D..
i should have stayed for photos man but OHWELLS i was really too tired to be happy and take photos haha..
oh i spotted me on tv! haha prob cos i was looking quite hard BUT I LOOKED DAMN SIAN hahaha
hai u think i can go and watch the finals? I REALLY WANT TO, cos a performance by the special guest deserves to be watched 'live' like omg THIS IS A RARE OPPORTUNITY U KNOW!!
WISH ME LUCK please.
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today i watched '200 pounds beauty' with zhi and jel!
and i teared again -_-. OMG what if im REALLY REALLY becoming emo HAHAHA! until last year, I Not Stupid Too was the first movie that i ever teared in okay! now it's happening so often ohno not cool not cool!
but the ending was realllllly touching.. story might be abit too over exaggerated at times but still funny haha..
zhi thinks that the male lead is goodlooking but I DONT THINK SO! korean guys dont appeal to me HAHA! "Support local talent!" WAHAHAHA sorry random.
anw shen joined us for dinner at pastamania and then jel & shen went back to rj..
ZHI AND I THEN WENT TO THE ARCADE! hahaha.. they had bishi bashi! we were quite horrible at it though.. our brain-hand coordination not very fast and accurate HAHA but zhi had better admit that she's much worse than me HEHE =P..
we also played $5 worth of big sweetland so zhi could get her milk bottle sweet, and basketball too!
unlike last time, overall i spent less than $10 in the arcade YAY! but nevertheless it was really loads of fun :).. pity jel and shen left alr =X..
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after procrastinating for 20 days, i think im really going swimming tmr! why is there so much inertia anyhow? THE SWIMMING POOL IS JUST DOWNSTAIRS mygoodness me haha -_-.. somemore it's so small that i can reach the other end by kicking 5 times HAHA! and i shall suntan too whee~
Sunday, April 15, 2007
I AM SO DAMN FREAKING HAPPY YOU HAVE NO IDEA.
I JUST WOKE KRYSTLE FROM HER SLEEP TO CALL HER AND TELL HER AND LAUGH LIKE A MANIAC.
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
AHH AHH AHH AHH
-BEAMS-
Saturday, April 14, 2007
the lighting is cool huh :)?
yeah anyhow i did two of the MOST EMBARRASSING and MOST LOSERLY things IN MY LIFE aft the dance floor.. ROAR! i guess i was banking on SOMEONE being nice and free enough, but for now, he's not =(.. so i am currently EMBARRASSED BEYOND WORDS. with still no tickets =X
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and on thur night, i finally went out with michie, cat and krystle! i finally ate my aglio olio from pastamania :)..
we went to watch SUNSHINE, and OMG I AM BECOMING EMO wahahahaha... I TEARED AT THE END OF THE SHOW LIKE OMG -_-. ahh wells but i couldnt help it!! even though the whole plot was fictional but STILL i was very touched cos the eight pple were so wei da ='(.. they stuck to their mission till the very end despite knowing that they were sure to die..
WOW.
but weird choice of cast man. HAHA totally random la the mixture of races etc -_-..
went to cafe cartel for oreo frappe aft that.. BUT I DIDNT LIKE IT! the only thing that i liked was the oreo biscuit at the top hahaha.. im still young at heart cos coffee doesnt appeal to me AT ALL >.< .. i think it gives me a headache haha..
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today my ballet teacher was HORRIBLE. she cancelled class and happily only msged a few of my classmates AND I DIDNT KNOW. hmph roarr!!! so four of us were waiting stupidly in the studio for about 45 mins before we decided to leave.. HMPH.
but this was prob the first time i talked quite abit to my classmates haha.. sometimes i think their passion for dance is quite admirable.. like some of them can even consider entering laselle-sia or nafa to pursue dance, despite knowing that they're not really excellent at it =X..
how come i dont have sucha passion? i mean i doubt there'll ever be a day you'll hear me proclaim that "dancing is my life" -_-.. but i do enjoy dance (erm sometimes)! esp when i feel the sense of achievement from executing a nice-looking split jump or whatsoever.. but a serious career in dance? nahh..
what is passion anyhow?
i dont think ive ever had a strong PASSION for anything that ive done in my life.. being good at something motivates me the most, and when im not, the "passion" just fades away.. HAHA how realistic and 'materialistic' eh? hahaha =X..
i also went to watch my bro's taekwondo grading test today :).. he had sucha packed day that i actually felt sorry for him =X.. when i woke up, he alr went for tuition, then came back for a short lunch and rushed out his compo homework for his afternoon eng tuition, then flew off for this taekwondo test, then went for quick dinner and lastly art class..
WHOAH. even i wasnt so packed last time when i had abacus, piano and ballet classes all on saturday.. so i rewarded him by letting him play neopets using my account for about 1hr just now :).. kids are so easily satisfied eh? so peaceful and innocent and blissful haha =D
and OMG HAHAHAHA my family (okay and ME too) are such giam siap monsters HAHAHA! we are the TRUE KIASU SINGAPOREANS dont pray pray!! hehe! this aftnn the scdf pple came down to give a demonstration and there was catered buffet dinner aft tt.. and when my parents and i came home aft dinner, WE ACTUALLY KOPED CURRY POKS AND CAKE and brought them home HAHAHA.. and we were being so sneaky about it, trying to avoid the security cameras and all..
HAHAHAHA ULTIMATE RIGHT! but it was seriously damn funny hahaha.. IM PROUD TO BE IN THIS FAMILY lovelove hahaha =D..
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anw, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF BUMMING LIFE!!! and now im in desperate need of a relatively well paying job to kill time..
OMG u have no idea how crappy it feels to wake up, eat lunch, go to the sofa laze arnd and watch tv, take less than 20 steps to the room to use the computer, and the cycle repeats. OMGOMGOMG. cos when u do it for too long, all your energy to do anything just DISAPPEARS, and i can sleep for 10+hours and yet still feel sleepy in the aftnn -_-..
and i need something to occupy my time to keep my mind off things.. i concluded that the reason why im so OBSESSED is prob cos i have nothing better to think about HAHAHA..
ANY JOB RECOMMENDATIONS ANYONE? take pity on poor meli :)? haha..
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
hmm. that came quite appropriately and unexpectedly, since it was from a book about helping babies with HIV.
actually honestly i dont know where the retaliation is coming from, but i just DONT WANT TO. at least not for now. I DUNNO WHY.
and from now i am going to stick to my viewpoint of not telling. i think i can protect myself better that way. so i wont be thinking why there isnt any reply, or why it's so hard to tell when it's not supposed to be that way. so i wont need to face up to the already-existent-yet-have-been-avoiding problems and everything will be fine :).
i know running away is the worst possible solution, but i dont know how to cope with it otherwise. maybe i dont even want to cope with it in the first place.
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haha what a rubbishy bunch of gibberish. well i think im going to stop it soon, if not noone will know what im talking about hahaha.. DANCE FLOOR 'LIVE' AGAIN
shant let my imagination take over though.. krystle says im imagining too much HAHA! but if we want good seats for the finals we have to start planning ya? and i like my plan, cos can kill two birds with one stone MUAHAHA!!
i only hope that i have COOL PHOTOS to post aft
i think bumming arnd at home is a BLESSING man haha! i havent gotten sick of it yet :)... and ive been sleeping a hell lot man! plus lots of tv, an occasional book, and the computer! plus free lunch and dinner everyday wheeheehee!! with the exception of wednesday nights, there is actually a really high inertia to change and get out of the house haha..
but I WANT TO GO TO VIVO I WANT TO GO TO VIVO!! before it's too late =X... not that ive never gone to vivo before, BUT THIS IS SPECIAL! omg marilyn khng made me so jealous just now =(.. haha im jealous of her, and she's jealous of me. HOW IRONIC!!
let's hope
Friday, April 06, 2007
wahsey i tell you I HATE HTML CODING! esp when ive never attended any lessons related to html coding -_-..
and the happiness has spilt over to TODAY wheeheehee :).. i was smiling to myself even during mass just thinking of my "script" for a potential comment HAHAHA..
my head is groggy and im not thinking clearly so i should stop blogging.. AND I PROBABLY CAN GO AGAIN ON WED LIKE YAY WOOHOO =D!!
courage courage! i need COURAGE! to do sth outrageously stupid and lame and embarrassing and bimbo-like muahaha :)..
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
IM ON CLOUD THIRTEEN! i loved tonight AND IM GOING FOR IT NEXT WK AGAIN.. i really hope im able to! IT'LL MAKE MY WEEK =D!!
the big smile :). and the small wave :). then the WAVE AND SMILE out of his own accord at the end =D!!!!!!
AHHH AHH AHH happiness is in the airrrrrrrrrrrrrr :)!!!!!
nvm if theyre unpopular, i shall be his BEST and one and only avid supporter =D!
love love!! DANCE AGAIN MY
same place, same floor, and same spot next wk? AHHH my happiness is in your hands krystle!! hahaha :)..
YAYYY share my joy everyone =DDDDDDDDDD!!!!! and heck everything else :)
noone except mich cat and krystle.
and im going to mean what i say. sorry for offending many others in the process.
u know what? i dunno whether it hurts. i dunno if ive made any right decision at all. i dunno ANYTHING. any DAMN FUCKING THING. but i dont care anm.
i think all i need now is someone to give me a big, long and tight hug and reassure me that everything will be right in the end.
and NOONE can make me NOT enjoy the dance floor 'live' tonight. and mediacorp camping date tmr.
so i guess that's it then. goodbye.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
BUT I HAVE PROOF THAT HE HAS GAINED WEIGHT TOO!
Left: 2005. Right: 2007
haha U SEE U SEE! so everyone STOP CALLING ME MEAN FOR CALLING HIM FAT THANKYOUVERYMUCH =P!
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ROAR. i tell you someone is PISSING ME OFF. like seriously. and im damn close to telling the person off TMD CHOUJIDAN!
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i plucked up the courage to write A EMAIL. but i still dont dare to send it yet. you have no idea how much it took for me to get down to writing it. it's already an accomplishment by itself.
but after this i dont know what's going to happen. i think my life is going to change, just that i dont know if it's for the better or for worse.
what if i get hated for life like omg. or what if everyone starts talking behind my back. ahh sob.
and i still havent sent the email. IM SCARED LA OKAY.