Wednesday, April 11, 2007
"Sometimes there are no answers, sometimes we have to leave things to heaven and just believe that someone bigger and smarter than us has life under control. The only thing we can do is love each other and be there for each other through the parts we don't understand."
hmm. that came quite appropriately and unexpectedly, since it was from a book about helping babies with HIV.
actually honestly i dont know where the retaliation is coming from, but i just DONT WANT TO. at least not for now. I DUNNO WHY.
and from now i am going to stick to my viewpoint of not telling. i think i can protect myself better that way. so i wont be thinking why there isnt any reply, or why it's so hard to tell when it's not supposed to be that way. so i wont need to face up to the already-existent-yet-have-been-avoiding problems and everything will be fine :).
i know running away is the worst possible solution, but i dont know how to cope with it otherwise. maybe i dont even want to cope with it in the first place.
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haha what a rubbishy bunch of gibberish. well i think im going to stop it soon, if not noone will know what im talking about hahaha.. DANCE FLOOR 'LIVE' AGAINtmr TONIGHT yayyyy :)!
shant let my imagination take over though.. krystle says im imagining too much HAHA! but if we want good seats for the finals we have to start planning ya? and i like my plan, cos can kill two birds with one stone MUAHAHA!!
i only hope that i have COOL PHOTOS to post afttmr night TONIGHT wheeeeee~
i think bumming arnd at home is a BLESSING man haha! i havent gotten sick of it yet :)... and ive been sleeping a hell lot man! plus lots of tv, an occasional book, and the computer! plus free lunch and dinner everyday wheeheehee!! with the exception of wednesday nights, there is actually a really high inertia to change and get out of the house haha..
but I WANT TO GO TO VIVO I WANT TO GO TO VIVO!! before it's too late =X... not that ive never gone to vivo before, BUT THIS IS SPECIAL! omg marilyn khng made me so jealous just now =(.. haha im jealous of her, and she's jealous of me. HOW IRONIC!!
let's hopetomorrow TONIGHT will be a fruitful trip :).. cos currently i think harping on idols is better than thinking of anything else =D!!
hmm. that came quite appropriately and unexpectedly, since it was from a book about helping babies with HIV.
actually honestly i dont know where the retaliation is coming from, but i just DONT WANT TO. at least not for now. I DUNNO WHY.
and from now i am going to stick to my viewpoint of not telling. i think i can protect myself better that way. so i wont be thinking why there isnt any reply, or why it's so hard to tell when it's not supposed to be that way. so i wont need to face up to the already-existent-yet-have-been-avoiding problems and everything will be fine :).
i know running away is the worst possible solution, but i dont know how to cope with it otherwise. maybe i dont even want to cope with it in the first place.
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haha what a rubbishy bunch of gibberish. well i think im going to stop it soon, if not noone will know what im talking about hahaha.. DANCE FLOOR 'LIVE' AGAIN
shant let my imagination take over though.. krystle says im imagining too much HAHA! but if we want good seats for the finals we have to start planning ya? and i like my plan, cos can kill two birds with one stone MUAHAHA!!
i only hope that i have COOL PHOTOS to post aft
i think bumming arnd at home is a BLESSING man haha! i havent gotten sick of it yet :)... and ive been sleeping a hell lot man! plus lots of tv, an occasional book, and the computer! plus free lunch and dinner everyday wheeheehee!! with the exception of wednesday nights, there is actually a really high inertia to change and get out of the house haha..
but I WANT TO GO TO VIVO I WANT TO GO TO VIVO!! before it's too late =X... not that ive never gone to vivo before, BUT THIS IS SPECIAL! omg marilyn khng made me so jealous just now =(.. haha im jealous of her, and she's jealous of me. HOW IRONIC!!
let's hope
meli
blabbered at 1:49 AM