the lighting is cool huh :)?

yeah anyhow i did two of the MOST EMBARRASSING and MOST LOSERLY things IN MY LIFE aft the dance floor.. ROAR! i guess i was banking on SOMEONE being nice and free enough, but for now, he's not =(.. so i am currently EMBARRASSED BEYOND WORDS. with still no tickets =X

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and on thur night, i finally went out with michie, cat and krystle! i finally ate my aglio olio from pastamania :)..

we went to watch SUNSHINE, and OMG I AM BECOMING EMO wahahahaha... I TEARED AT THE END OF THE SHOW LIKE OMG -_-. ahh wells but i couldnt help it!! even though the whole plot was fictional but STILL i was very touched cos the eight pple were so wei da ='(.. they stuck to their mission till the very end despite knowing that they were sure to die..

WOW.

but weird choice of cast man. HAHA totally random la the mixture of races etc -_-..

went to cafe cartel for oreo frappe aft that.. BUT I DIDNT LIKE IT! the only thing that i liked was the oreo biscuit at the top hahaha.. im still young at heart cos coffee doesnt appeal to me AT ALL >.< .. i think it gives me a headache haha..

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today my ballet teacher was HORRIBLE. she cancelled class and happily only msged a few of my classmates AND I DIDNT KNOW. hmph roarr!!! so four of us were waiting stupidly in the studio for about 45 mins before we decided to leave.. HMPH.

but this was prob the first time i talked quite abit to my classmates haha.. sometimes i think their passion for dance is quite admirable.. like some of them can even consider entering laselle-sia or nafa to pursue dance, despite knowing that they're not really excellent at it =X..

how come i dont have sucha passion? i mean i doubt there'll ever be a day you'll hear me proclaim that "dancing is my life" -_-.. but i do enjoy dance (erm sometimes)! esp when i feel the sense of achievement from executing a nice-looking split jump or whatsoever.. but a serious career in dance? nahh..

what is passion anyhow?

i dont think ive ever had a strong PASSION for anything that ive done in my life.. being good at something motivates me the most, and when im not, the "passion" just fades away.. HAHA how realistic and 'materialistic' eh? hahaha =X..

i also went to watch my bro's taekwondo grading test today :).. he had sucha packed day that i actually felt sorry for him =X.. when i woke up, he alr went for tuition, then came back for a short lunch and rushed out his compo homework for his afternoon eng tuition, then flew off for this taekwondo test, then went for quick dinner and lastly art class..

WHOAH. even i wasnt so packed last time when i had abacus, piano and ballet classes all on saturday.. so i rewarded him by letting him play neopets using my account for about 1hr just now :).. kids are so easily satisfied eh? so peaceful and innocent and blissful haha =D

and OMG HAHAHAHA my family (okay and ME too) are such giam siap monsters HAHAHA! we are the TRUE KIASU SINGAPOREANS dont pray pray!! hehe! this aftnn the scdf pple came down to give a demonstration and there was catered buffet dinner aft tt.. and when my parents and i came home aft dinner, WE ACTUALLY KOPED CURRY POKS AND CAKE and brought them home HAHAHA.. and we were being so sneaky about it, trying to avoid the security cameras and all..

HAHAHAHA ULTIMATE RIGHT! but it was seriously damn funny hahaha.. IM PROUD TO BE IN THIS FAMILY lovelove hahaha =D..

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anw, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF BUMMING LIFE!!! and now im in desperate need of a relatively well paying job to kill time..

OMG u have no idea how crappy it feels to wake up, eat lunch, go to the sofa laze arnd and watch tv, take less than 20 steps to the room to use the computer, and the cycle repeats. OMGOMGOMG. cos when u do it for too long, all your energy to do anything just DISAPPEARS, and i can sleep for 10+hours and yet still feel sleepy in the aftnn -_-..

and i need something to occupy my time to keep my mind off things.. i concluded that the reason why im so OBSESSED is prob cos i have nothing better to think about HAHAHA..

ANY JOB RECOMMENDATIONS ANYONE? take pity on poor meli :)? haha..