Wednesday, October 04, 2006
hello im supposed to be reading physics notes but nvm haha :)...
looking at all the pple applying overseas and having sucha difficult time completing the numerous essays + personal statement + everything else required in the portfolio, my heart really goes out to them... cos at the same time it's coupled with the fear of not being accepted to any of the unis and having to cope with some teachers' expressing their lack of confidence of writing a good recommendation for you which will make you start to regret how you chose to lead life in jc these past two years =X...
im really glad that my parents dont demand that i apply to overseas cos i know im incapable of going through all those stuff by myself writing all those crap esp when at the back of your head you feel that the time could actually be better spent mugging for alevels/SATs? haha though i know that overseas uni application is more of a personal decision but being aspiration-less me, i still need pple to help make decisions for me :)..
also, looking past all the tedious application stuff, i will NEVER survive alone in a stranger country esp when pple will not understand my eloquent singlish HAHA! even though everyone in singapore might just be a phone call away, it's just... different! my greatest fear of not being able to maintain the close level of friendships with my fav friends is also a huge obstacle...
of course, that is based on the assumption that the bulk of my friends are STILL in singapore HAH!
yep!! act i dunno why im writing this when my main concern is getting into the local uni that i want with the course that i want (though i havent decided what yet haha)... it's just a sudden outburst that i had to let out haha..
to everyone applying overseas: dont be disheartened alright!! prelim results are not everything la just submit all that youve written and if it's meant to be, God will do the rest :)!
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i think im getting sick.. my stomach has been feeling weird ALL day and once in a while for abt 8 secs my whole stomach will feel as if someone is trying to wrench it dry and it'll feel as if it's squashed up ahhh damn pain!! (it's not cramps btw)... plus this is not the first time it's happening! i think this is the third day ive experienced this within a span of.. two weeks?
and ive been having an overdose of slp!! VERY VERY BAD! i can nap the entire aftnn away and still be able to feel slpy enough to go to bed at 11+pm OMG!!!!
WHAT IF IM DYING HOW???
and during times like these it's a good idea NOT to get on my nerves cos what you're doing now is just gg to make me detest you further pfft. IRRITANT i tell you.
ANW cos of my weird stomach i decided not to go and stuff myself at the sakae buffet with zhi and the rest today =(... cos bo hua la if im only going to eat a little bit HAII so sad and wasted!!
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i FINALLY got Back the last of my eCons paper today so that mEans i received all my prElim results alr :)..
and for the first time in my entire jc career i passed all subjects!! though it's still quite horrendous but i feel a small sense of achievement haha..
but what my dad said today was sucha slap in the face pfft! u must understand that he's nv said much about my results etcetc... and then today he drop bomb and said that my results are like crap cos noone will be looking at the no of passes but the no of As... and with such bad results im still not getting down to studying, still go playplayplay and go out so much -_-...
qi si ren le! i know what he said makes sense la but HELLO dont just suddenly drop bomb on me like that right? he could have at least TOLD me from the beginning what he expected of me or sth and not suddenly expect me to BE what he had hoped of me like wth..
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i really wonder why i dont have a GREAT inner desire to achieve good results.. i dont think it's cos im too complacent (cos im not) or ive given up.. it's just me. easygoing me. haha...
me: "ohno what if i do badly for everything and then i break down and cry SO MALU la!"
everyone i told: "you will cry over results one meh?"
haha the answer is no.. not that it's a bad thing but I DUNNO WHY... it could be due to this lack of desire that's why i spend 93% of my waking life slacking away =X..
and when i DO get bad results i dont even bother FIGHTING for a mere few marks... i just laugh at myself and then tell everyone how silly i was HAHA crap that is so unlike a typical rj student omg! just like when i was awarded only ONE pathetic sympathy mark for part (a) for one econs essay question upon.. 10? HAHA! and u know what the marker's comment was? "pretty disastrous"
HAHAHAHA omg la so unfeeling and blunt hmphh! but it was my fault la i didnt read the taxes notes thoroughly enough and mixed up all the DEFINITIONS haha ohwells at least i still passed econs overall so whatever..
do u think im abnormal? haha at least everyone can be reassured that a person like me wont have much tendency to commit suicide! im too much of an escapist and joker to do that haha..
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ahhhh! my stomach still feels VERY weird and i dont wanna go to sch tmr! we end at four la wah lao eh and i have econs tuition at 530pm! I NEED A BREAK PLS!
looking at all the pple applying overseas and having sucha difficult time completing the numerous essays + personal statement + everything else required in the portfolio, my heart really goes out to them... cos at the same time it's coupled with the fear of not being accepted to any of the unis and having to cope with some teachers' expressing their lack of confidence of writing a good recommendation for you which will make you start to regret how you chose to lead life in jc these past two years =X...
im really glad that my parents dont demand that i apply to overseas cos i know im incapable of going through all those stuff by myself writing all those crap esp when at the back of your head you feel that the time could actually be better spent mugging for alevels/SATs? haha though i know that overseas uni application is more of a personal decision but being aspiration-less me, i still need pple to help make decisions for me :)..
also, looking past all the tedious application stuff, i will NEVER survive alone in a stranger country esp when pple will not understand my eloquent singlish HAHA! even though everyone in singapore might just be a phone call away, it's just... different! my greatest fear of not being able to maintain the close level of friendships with my fav friends is also a huge obstacle...
of course, that is based on the assumption that the bulk of my friends are STILL in singapore HAH!
yep!! act i dunno why im writing this when my main concern is getting into the local uni that i want with the course that i want (though i havent decided what yet haha)... it's just a sudden outburst that i had to let out haha..
to everyone applying overseas: dont be disheartened alright!! prelim results are not everything la just submit all that youve written and if it's meant to be, God will do the rest :)!
***
i think im getting sick.. my stomach has been feeling weird ALL day and once in a while for abt 8 secs my whole stomach will feel as if someone is trying to wrench it dry and it'll feel as if it's squashed up ahhh damn pain!! (it's not cramps btw)... plus this is not the first time it's happening! i think this is the third day ive experienced this within a span of.. two weeks?
and ive been having an overdose of slp!! VERY VERY BAD! i can nap the entire aftnn away and still be able to feel slpy enough to go to bed at 11+pm OMG!!!!
WHAT IF IM DYING HOW???
and during times like these it's a good idea NOT to get on my nerves cos what you're doing now is just gg to make me detest you further pfft. IRRITANT i tell you.
ANW cos of my weird stomach i decided not to go and stuff myself at the sakae buffet with zhi and the rest today =(... cos bo hua la if im only going to eat a little bit HAII so sad and wasted!!
***
i FINALLY got Back the last of my eCons paper today so that mEans i received all my prElim results alr :)..
and for the first time in my entire jc career i passed all subjects!! though it's still quite horrendous but i feel a small sense of achievement haha..
but what my dad said today was sucha slap in the face pfft! u must understand that he's nv said much about my results etcetc... and then today he drop bomb and said that my results are like crap cos noone will be looking at the no of passes but the no of As... and with such bad results im still not getting down to studying, still go playplayplay and go out so much -_-...
qi si ren le! i know what he said makes sense la but HELLO dont just suddenly drop bomb on me like that right? he could have at least TOLD me from the beginning what he expected of me or sth and not suddenly expect me to BE what he had hoped of me like wth..
***
i really wonder why i dont have a GREAT inner desire to achieve good results.. i dont think it's cos im too complacent (cos im not) or ive given up.. it's just me. easygoing me. haha...
me: "ohno what if i do badly for everything and then i break down and cry SO MALU la!"
everyone i told: "you will cry over results one meh?"
haha the answer is no.. not that it's a bad thing but I DUNNO WHY... it could be due to this lack of desire that's why i spend 93% of my waking life slacking away =X..
and when i DO get bad results i dont even bother FIGHTING for a mere few marks... i just laugh at myself and then tell everyone how silly i was HAHA crap that is so unlike a typical rj student omg! just like when i was awarded only ONE pathetic sympathy mark for part (a) for one econs essay question upon.. 10? HAHA! and u know what the marker's comment was? "pretty disastrous"
HAHAHAHA omg la so unfeeling and blunt hmphh! but it was my fault la i didnt read the taxes notes thoroughly enough and mixed up all the DEFINITIONS haha ohwells at least i still passed econs overall so whatever..
do u think im abnormal? haha at least everyone can be reassured that a person like me wont have much tendency to commit suicide! im too much of an escapist and joker to do that haha..
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ahhhh! my stomach still feels VERY weird and i dont wanna go to sch tmr! we end at four la wah lao eh and i have econs tuition at 530pm! I NEED A BREAK PLS!
meli
blabbered at 10:41 PM