HEY mr and mrs arthur foo yall must hang it up at your new house k!! hahaha so exciting (: may yall live happily ever after!! zao sheng gui zi, bai tou xie lao, yong yuan mei man, kuai kuai le le etcetc (i wanted to write all those in the card but realised that i didnt know how to write the characters HAHA)

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FINALLY cts have ended! but im really screwed up for all the papers! i tink i'll get arnd the range of B.O.O.O. again haha.. i CONFIRM cant even get D.E.A.D. lar so can u imagine how dead i am??

but it's okay... laughter is the best medicine and i laughed ALOT yest aft the maths paper... haha i went to marina sq to watch superman.. and throughout the show i was laughing lar.. NOT BECAUSE the movie was funny but maybs kept poking me when i insulted superman and mich and i were laughing at how li-pu his superpowers can be!

i mean i know superman has super powers but then it's like in order to prevent the things from dropping down and hurting the pple on the ground he used his EYES to create some laser thing and so it sheltered the people from the falling things... like ERRRRRR... i mean although he's superman but still quite funny and amusing lar HAHA! but superman is shuai! too shuai alr tho HAHA... and the small boy very cute also :)!!

aft that i was late for dance practice in church =X.. and it was ABIT coincidental that the rciy sponsors were there for mtg as well OHMYMAMA... act i wasnt planning for anyone to find out abt this prayer rally dance!! cos i tink i look weird when i dance haha... so it's okay for strangers that i see once in a lifetime to watch but it's DIFFERENT for pple i know U NOEE =S... ohwell i dont think they'll come lar... hopefully haha..

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wow im amazed at myself i act talked on the phone for close to 3 hrs yest nite/this morn! haha it's quite rare for me to talk so long on the phone if u didnt know yet... but then talking to mich we can just go ON and ON non-stop abt everything, even the most nonsense things like whether she will commit suicide cos too stressed from jc haha..

BUT DONT COMMIT SUICIDE K BABE haha cos noone can heal me with laughter when im down like u do (:.. so in the end i'll die from depression too! hahaha anw we're both just kidding lar haha..

anw i really think im ultra shy when with pple not my age.. like last wk ben said when i first joined rciy i was DISGUSTINGLY shy but the turning point was when he realised that i agreed to be in the prayer rally dance... but act i think i havent changed much from then =X..

it's just different when communicating with pple older than u.. cos i think the reason why i can talk SO much when with close frens is cos we talk abt the most retarded things possible on earth... and i highly doubt that the things i talk abt can be counted as a conversation topic when talking to them haha =S... for eg i dont think they act have the time to watch sillly tv shows that i watch like spore idol, SUPERBAND, chinese dramas hahaha...

ohwells... so it feels that it's ABIT wrong that i still wanna be befriender cos everyone keeps saying that befrienders have to be the one to take the initiative and talk to the enquirers etcetc.. haii kan zhe ban ba.. MAYBE i will open up aft the trainings... anw im happy enough if im allowed to do all the backstage jobs like packing food for camps or sth haha.. i tink for me it'll be heartwarming enough to journey and witness the enquirer's growth even though im not the direct person causing the change:)

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i wonder how life will be like aft 18. i dont wanna it to ever come. i dont want to experience uni life. i dont wanna grow up. i hope i dont ever have to go overseas alone for long periods of time. loneliness scares me. and it's freaky at the extent pple can change when you're all alone.

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how i wish i could find a way to tell you to stop thinking so lowly of yourself. and to stop deliberately changing for the worst.