Monday, May 09, 2005
k im writing this during makeup chem lecture...as usual i dun understand wadz the lecturerz talking abt..not to mention tt i forgot to bring my notes :S..
i tink i suck. i really do. i cldnt even complete the spaastic shit 2.4km run WHOA LAO...i dun even have tt bit of determination to force myself to keep winning...how *beep* can i get rite? -____- aft the run i seriously felt like crying lar...i completed 5 blardy rounds in a little over 17 mins so i din bother to complete the last round...either way oso sure fail so y bother?!
ok i noe every1z prob tinking what a shit loser i am...YES I NOE IM SUCHA ARSEHOLIC LOSERRR...itz not even as if i smoke so the size of my lungs shrink or sth...my lack of mental strength is depressing :x.. rahhhh i really dun wanna do another re-run prob this wed $*&(@&*%!!!!! itz so easy for everyone to say stuff like "no matter wad u shldnt start walking" or "sing a song while running" etc but my dumb brain juz wun do it.
i guess the only consoling thing is how subtle God does his works...itz really heartwarming when my classmates sit down in the canteen and help me brainstorm how to pass my 2.4 :D and each time i do stoopid things like fail 2.4 someone will always be there to re-run too so i wun be all alone:)
but STILL. ITZ STILL ME THE LOSER. i wanna box myself.
k class ended alr.time for dance nite rehearsal and try and balance my heavy body on top of the guy...bleah...
i tink i suck. i really do. i cldnt even complete the spaastic shit 2.4km run WHOA LAO...i dun even have tt bit of determination to force myself to keep winning...how *beep* can i get rite? -____- aft the run i seriously felt like crying lar...i completed 5 blardy rounds in a little over 17 mins so i din bother to complete the last round...either way oso sure fail so y bother?!
ok i noe every1z prob tinking what a shit loser i am...YES I NOE IM SUCHA ARSEHOLIC LOSERRR...itz not even as if i smoke so the size of my lungs shrink or sth...my lack of mental strength is depressing :x.. rahhhh i really dun wanna do another re-run prob this wed $*&(@&*%!!!!! itz so easy for everyone to say stuff like "no matter wad u shldnt start walking" or "sing a song while running" etc but my dumb brain juz wun do it.
i guess the only consoling thing is how subtle God does his works...itz really heartwarming when my classmates sit down in the canteen and help me brainstorm how to pass my 2.4 :D and each time i do stoopid things like fail 2.4 someone will always be there to re-run too so i wun be all alone:)
but STILL. ITZ STILL ME THE LOSER. i wanna box myself.
k class ended alr.time for dance nite rehearsal and try and balance my heavy body on top of the guy...bleah...
meli
blabbered at 5:11 PM