Sunday, May 08, 2005
i feel horrible.
sometimes i wish i was a guy..a normal avg guy tt is...so i'll naturally be less emotional and tink less on stupid insignificant stuff...
i tink wad aaron said longgg time ago abt wad i really want and need is true...hez spot on...and the whole thing is striking me hard now...
whoz the someone who can lend me a listening ear?act in the first place i shld overcome my personal obstacle..i dun even want to tell any1 anything...anw all my thots are so insignificant and stupid i can so imagine everyone juz rolling their eyes...and sometimes things are juz too bhb or "un-meli" to say so wad the heck...
im glad to be of help to some pple and listen to wadever they say...or mayb im oso tinking too highly of myself...im not much use either...
so wadz my purpose in this world? i really wonder...im always saying and doing the wrong tings at the wrong time and i only get on pplez nerves....
rahhh i cant even express myself properly...this is so effing stoopid...forget it...
i shall go drown myself in hw now...though therez not much to do...u noe how much it sucks when u have the motivation to complete ur hw but each time u start u juz dunno how to do all the blardy qns so u throw it aside and the cycle repeats itself...how dumb can i get right? im seriously tinking of dropping out of sch lar...feeling so darn stoopid..
bye.
sometimes i wish i was a guy..a normal avg guy tt is...so i'll naturally be less emotional and tink less on stupid insignificant stuff...
i tink wad aaron said longgg time ago abt wad i really want and need is true...hez spot on...and the whole thing is striking me hard now...
whoz the someone who can lend me a listening ear?act in the first place i shld overcome my personal obstacle..i dun even want to tell any1 anything...anw all my thots are so insignificant and stupid i can so imagine everyone juz rolling their eyes...and sometimes things are juz too bhb or "un-meli" to say so wad the heck...
im glad to be of help to some pple and listen to wadever they say...or mayb im oso tinking too highly of myself...im not much use either...
so wadz my purpose in this world? i really wonder...im always saying and doing the wrong tings at the wrong time and i only get on pplez nerves....
rahhh i cant even express myself properly...this is so effing stoopid...forget it...
i shall go drown myself in hw now...though therez not much to do...u noe how much it sucks when u have the motivation to complete ur hw but each time u start u juz dunno how to do all the blardy qns so u throw it aside and the cycle repeats itself...how dumb can i get right? im seriously tinking of dropping out of sch lar...feeling so darn stoopid..
bye.
meli
blabbered at 9:53 PM